Me...MySeLF...& I...!

its GREAT!

2005-08-31T23:10:00.000+08:00

d show went great on Sunday!SPLENDID!n SUPERB!hee...i cant believe im archelli complimentin on ma own show!wakaka...hey,but it was gud ok!gez our endless practices which ended till late...deprivin me of ma 8hrs of beauty sleep(~bluek!hee!) n time fer ma self-revision was worth it huh!hmm...yet, d practices arent over still!got 1 more production ta go on 19 Sept!which is like only 3 wks left...n we're not even a bit ready fer it!urgh!but abg man says he's gonna kol it 'RINDU' n we'll b dancin wif tikar, tt sort of stuff.

aniwez...ive been kinda bz lately wif d practices tt ive had barely time ta update stuff.skul goin fine, tho haf skipped a few lectures coz was feelin real shagged fr all d dancin.missin ma late nite outs wif ma sweets n besties but i gez i cant afford d time dem nw...i rili miz u peepz tho!

skul started at 8 in d mornin!urgh!im never a mornin kinda person...which explains y i was half-an hour late fer ma lect!hmm...im nvr an early bird either ta cum ta tink of it!kwakwa...anihoos, lect was bearable...tho the lecturer was a bit too long-winded!even if u were day-dreamin durin half of d lect, ill bet u can catch up wif her durin d other half of d lect!LOL!yupz, its tt terrible i tell u!den had 4hrs of break, followed by 'IT n Us' lect in Engine...was snoozin moz of d time as usual!crappy lecturer, olwez whisperin ta himself!

lucky d day's over...but goin fer tuition was nice 2day archelli...fiy, its teacher's day tmr....so, d kids had prepared special sumtings fer me!so sweet can....!awww......lurve dem ta bits!
now, im kinda muggin n obviously takin a super-long 5mins break!haha...got tons of assignments due...urgh!tinkin of it jz makes me more sick!keratocyes essay, molecular biology online assignment, prob n stats tutorial, 'IT n Us' tutorial, n d list jz goes on n on...phew!cant wait fer dancin-lancin on fri...de-stress time plssss!

dun perceive anytin fr d exterior...coz not all is rite...
its all in d trust...it nids 2 ta keep it goin...

ure ma sugar rush, mister rezal...

*she nids a break badly*

2005-08-17T00:35:00.000+08:00

we enjoyed ourselves!!!

2005-08-17T00:34:00.000+08:00

its us!!!hee...

2005-08-13T16:00:00.000+08:00

callin callin...wer r dey?!

2005-08-13T15:59:00.000+08:00

waitin ta watch fireworks..

2005-08-13T15:51:00.000+08:00

so on fer national day!haha...

2005-08-13T15:50:00.000+08:00

its a real man...n its scary!

2005-08-13T15:48:00.001+08:00

off fer charlie n d choc factory!

2005-08-13T15:48:00.000+08:00

say cheese!

2005-08-13T15:35:00.000+08:00

its wen 2 becums 1...

2005-08-13T15:28:00.000+08:00

i melt wif his smile...its true!hee..

2005-08-08T16:08:00.000+08:00

in sephia...

2005-08-08T16:07:00.000+08:00

at puteri pan pacific...yummy2!

2005-08-08T16:06:00.000+08:00

i luv his smile...

2005-08-08T16:05:00.000+08:00

weeeee.....

2005-08-08T16:03:00.000+08:00

LUPP LUPP...!!!

2005-08-08T16:02:00.000+08:00

ice cream was good but cramps were SUCKY!

2005-08-08T15:58:00.000+08:00

invasion of freakin cramps...urgh!

2005-08-08T15:56:00.000+08:00

haagen daaz taste super yummy...!

2005-08-08T15:54:00.000+08:00

at d photo shoot...

2005-08-08T15:42:00.000+08:00

taken durin d matric fair...

long, long time...

2005-08-08T15:02:00.000+08:00

woah!it has been quite a while since i blogged huh...can b bothered lioaz...hee...
aniwez, it was d 1st day of skul jz nw...went all d way ta clementi fer 2 pathetic hrs of lecture...n gez wat!i was half an hour early sey...wat r d odds fer tt?!keke...ma mum said it was only goin ta b fer d 1st day...ermm...hello...ppl...dun u guys notice here tt im tryin ta chg...*grins ta dearest* hey...i m tryin k...i was early fer our last few dates!=p

aniwez...d holidays felt like a breeze!but im feelin 'on' fer d new sem...i gez...hee...aqilah's not in our threesome grp tho dis time round...tings dun feel quite d same wifout her ard...i miz her kiasuism-in-action lahh!lucky me, i still haf aarti n magnus ta help me in any case i find maself drownin in confusion...*winks*

tingz can b quite sour sumtimes wif ma out-of-d-blue mood swings!but lucky me...i haf such a patient...n i swear d sweetest bf by ma side!hee...went ta watch charlie n d choc factory at great world yesterday...aint rili tt great uh...but wats cool was tt d cinema was specially choc scented!dese small little tings rili awe me...keke...had a super duper great day tho...im lurvin it!

tmr's national day...oh ok...haha...an ignorant singaporean here!dear had booked tix fer bewitched!woohoo!*twitches nose* d old version serial comedies fer bewitched were great so im hopin fer d same 2 fer d movie...dun disappoint me!

been kinda bz wif dance fer our upcomin performance on d 28th. i swear ma shoulders, back n spine still hurts fr all d backrollin...n not forgettin ma thighs...haiyah...ma whole body uh!but still...i lurve doin dis kinda ting...goin up d stage n perform!

tink dere's sumtin wrong wif ma tagboard...i cant tag...!aniwez...sri n zee...im olwez free fer cb...keke...esp if its wif u guys!klah...shall stop here...gotta get back ta skul again fer dance pract!urgh!~daaz~

*she cant stop babbling*

2005-07-27T23:19:00.000+08:00

lurve dese pixies...!

sigh

2005-07-02T01:09:00.000+08:00

n now u made me tear...

2005-07-01T22:40:00.000+08:00

ma werkin peepz...*winks*

her days passed on well...

2005-07-01T22:21:00.000+08:00

Honey...

It's been a long time coming

And I can't stop now

Such a long time running

And I can't stop now

Do you hear my heart beating

Can you hear that sound

Cause I can't stop thinking

And I don't look down

And then I looked up at the sun

And I could see

Oh the way that gravity turns for you and me

And then I looked up at the sky and saw the sun

And the way that gravity pulls on everyone, on everyone

Baby, It's been a long time waiting

Such a long, long time

And I can't stop smiling

No I can't stop now

And do you hear my heart beating

Ah can you hear that sound

Cause I can't help crying

And I won't look down

And then I looked up at the sun and I could see

Oh the way that gravity turns on you and me

And then I looked up at the sun and saw the sky

And the way that gravity pulls on you and I, on you and I

Can you hear my heart beating

Can you hear that sound

Cause I can't help crying

And I wont look down

it has been a rollercoaster ride wif u...

n i hope it wun stop...

i luv u, baby...

ma days been goin on olrite...survivin...hee...n im gettin lazy ta update dis bloggie of mine...

she dances ta d tune

n cant stop

wif d beats goin on strong

she moves n sway

notin else seems ta matter

its only herself fightin d music

of reality...!

im lovin it...im lovin life...n im lovin u!

*she cant b bothered wif updatin animore*

2005-07-01T22:20:00.000+08:00

hee...her eyes blinked ta d flash!

2005-06-14T02:40:00.000+08:00

dere's only us...

2005-06-14T02:32:00.000+08:00

he's ma happiness...

day went ok....

2005-06-14T02:07:00.000+08:00

Mr n Mrs Smith...nice movie!
went ta watch it wif dearest...mkn...den headed ta skul fer ilsa.dear tagged along n waited fer me all d way till 10 n sent me hm.pity him, missed d last bus ta jurong...had ta tk a cab.i swear i haf d sweetest, nicest, greatest bf!!!hee...lupp ya!

werkin tmr...hp d days will go well...*prays*

aniwez...itz wan sweets birthday 2dae n i wish ta dedicate dis specially sung birthday song ta him....ehem,ehem...

Hapi b'day ta u...
Hapi b'day ta u...
Hapi b'day ta wan sweets...
Hapi b'day ta u...

YAY!!!sum1s olredi 20 huh...no more teen like me!kwakwa...enjoy ur day sweets!*winks*

to my dearest swtheart...dun wish ta b mushy2 n i noe im usualli not...but wud rili like ta say tt...I LOVE YOU LOADS!!!

she keeps waitin
n she keeps on wonderin
y is dere still no answer
n y is it so still
is she d only one feelin it
or is it not real
den y did it start in d 1st place
n y had it felt so real
she cant go on like dis
waitin n ponderin
fer wat is next ta cum
coz she's tired of givin in

*she loves him so dearly*

hypocrisy....scary....

2005-06-11T02:19:00.000+08:00

i cant slp...
but im tired...
alot on ma mind...
mentally drained...
im still so young yet flooded wif all kinds of probs...
*sigh*

d drama wun stop
she's becumin a stranger ta herself
she cant help herself
coz she's drowned in her own mistake
she cant turn around
coz she has gone so far
if only ppl cud c behind d facade
den tings wudnt turn out so complicated
she's lost n confused
searchin fer a way out
if only she knew
wat was it she wanted
y in d 1st place she started it
she's in a dilemma
n it's all her own doing
she wans ta stop all d lyings
all d nonsense, all d crap
but she doesnt noe how to
feelin regretful aint helpin
she's juz goin wif d flow
wher all dis hypocrisy leads her to
she's beginnin ta despise herself
oh god,bless her...

i gez perkampungan bahasa went on smoothly...i din make any mistakes durin d dance...dear said tt ma smile looked cramped...keke...obviously, i was so tryin hard ta not make any mistakes!was so glad ta meet d nus peeps...d kecoh putri-fied nisrin, oh-so-lovely shy, crappy izwah, n of coz ma dearies suzi n zu...bof days went great...im lovin it!werk's gettin fine...feels like in ma secondary skul days...wif all d so-called secret crushes...kwakwa...crappy frens i haf!
im beginnin ta miz ma carefree days...suddenly, i miz skul...i miz d so much free time i haf after skul...im missin d beach,juz slackin dere...im missin townin...im missin dancin-lancin wif ma frenzzies...i realised im missin alot of tings...n nw im beginnin ta hate werk all over again...watever...!i wanna go reggae wif d nus peeps tis sun can...*pouts*

n suddenly im scared of driftin apart
im scared of feelin so distant
d tot of havin u away
so far away from me fer so many days
fer so many weeks
it juz scares me
it rili do
i love u...

*she doesnt wanna b apart fr him*

a break fr evrytin...

2005-05-31T12:02:00.000+08:00

had ma off day yesterday...
dance practice in d mornin fer pb den in d evenin wif ilsa...
had fun but came back wif achin thighs n tired feet...
whole day wif dearest...accompanied me all d way...
had lunch in town wif ma cuzzies...dear, yana n bf, nana,eti...
den we separated, dear n me watched madagascar...
*giggles*

he's startin werk soon...
bof will b bz...
so sad...
but we'll try ta make time fer each other rite...
luv ya ma stinky man!

imagine you n me
n me n you
i think about u day n nite
its only rite
to think about d girl you love
n hold her tite
so happy together....

i so luv dis song can...lalalala...

*y do tings haf ta get shaky evry nw n den*

i hate werk!

2005-05-30T01:23:00.000+08:00

yah..its olwez d same story...I HATE WERK!

k..k...tink, enuf bout tt...
but kan...nw...evrytin revolves ard werk...
ma schedule is so dependent on it...
no time fer d beach,end up goin swimmin instead...
i miz palawan larr...*sigh*
n i so wanna go dancin-lancin wif ma nus frenzzies!
i miss dem loads...
*pouts*

AAaArGgHhHHhHhh.....y issit so tough ta earn money!!!ka-ching!ka-ching!

y r u so far away...never haf i felt so distant...i miss u...

*if only he knew*

2005-05-23T12:36:00.001+08:00

lupp him loads!

2005-05-23T12:36:00.000+08:00

dear smilin...keke..

2005-05-23T12:35:00.000+08:00

crapy us again!

2005-05-23T12:34:00.000+08:00

blurry pic..but i loike!hee..

i hate werk!!!

2005-05-23T11:26:00.000+08:00

been werkin olmoz evryday now...urgh!ma legs r achin...i hate werk!i hate werk!i hate werk!i swear d only time i enjoy it is d moment i walked to d security counter n punch ma card!hmmph!*pouts*

nonetheless, i had great days 2...went ta black on fri...sucky at 1st but was ok after tt...met jack aka rozhan dere...den d mornin went abit draggy...he was walkin here n dere...thank u dear fer takin care of ma fren!hee...i swear i haf d nicest, sweetest, most caring bf!oh yeah, oh yeah!angkat mahu lebih...hee...lupp ya stinky man!kwakwa...reached nana's hs ard 7...n had werk at 1...woke up at 9 plus...was stoned all d way at werk...slept upon any opportunity tt i got!headed hm straight after tt n slept till d next mornin...keke...tertido while chattin wif ma dear on d fon...=p

jack visited me at werk yesterday b4 goin off ta kl...paz me a cute teddy...n sum1 turned green...hee...aper jek!dear picked me up fr werk...wanted so much ta go fer reggae...frens all goin...*pouts* but wudnt wanna risk ma sleep again lahh...haf werk 2day...fark!sum1 looked so great yesterday sey...fallin in love wif ya all over again...lalalala...*dreams*keke...

klah...got ta rush fer werk!gettin late can!urgh!~daaz~

*she's so busy*

shagged...

2005-05-19T01:01:00.000+08:00

cant help maself feelin excited...

GOSH!

wat m i doin sey...

yet sumhw it feels just rite...

aargh!watever!

2nd day at werk...

feelin shagged...

*sigh*

*she's jumpy n crappy*

2005-05-17T12:15:00.000+08:00

crappy us...luv him!

2005-05-17T12:14:00.000+08:00

swenson's....yummy2!

2005-05-17T12:10:00.001+08:00

wats suzi tryin ta do...???hee...

2005-05-17T12:10:00.000+08:00

nicey mosque...mcm kat turkey sey!kwakwa...

2005-05-17T12:09:00.001+08:00

putrajaya...like hollywood ehk!

2005-05-17T12:09:00.000+08:00

in d bus...notin ta do...hee...

2005-05-17T12:08:00.001+08:00

our last day...b4 bookin out of d hotel...

2005-05-17T12:08:00.000+08:00

back in our rooms...sleepy zu n crazy moi!

2005-05-17T12:06:00.001+08:00

crappy us after club...

2005-05-17T12:06:00.000+08:00

after evryting...tired me...

2005-05-17T12:05:00.000+08:00

smoky smoky pixie...

2005-05-17T12:04:00.001+08:00

d beauties wif d pimp...kwakwa...

2005-05-17T12:04:00.000+08:00

across d club...us posin...hee...

2005-05-17T12:03:00.001+08:00

on d way ta nuovo...wee...

2005-05-17T12:03:00.000+08:00

nicey nice view!

2005-05-17T12:02:00.000+08:00

us havin fun in kl...yay!

2005-05-17T12:01:00.000+08:00

group pixie wif d kampong people!

2005-05-17T12:00:00.001+08:00

our laz picture taken...miz dem lahh...

2005-05-17T12:00:00.000+08:00

us wif our foster parents at our hs...

2005-05-17T11:59:00.001+08:00

sleepy sleepy us...

2005-05-17T11:59:00.000+08:00

laz nite at d beach...aww...

2005-05-17T11:57:00.000+08:00

ma face so cramped can!kwakwa...

2005-05-17T11:56:00.000+08:00

d girlies performin...ours nicer than d guys!

2005-05-17T11:55:00.001+08:00

d boys performin...crappy lyrics!hee...

2005-05-17T11:55:00.000+08:00

d gamelan group...nice music...

2005-05-17T11:54:00.000+08:00

d dikir boys n d so lovely wati...

2005-05-17T11:48:00.000+08:00

me wif ma foster sisters...gee...our sleep-deprived faces!

2005-05-17T11:47:00.000+08:00

at d ladang mangga...gosh...dey tasted super sweet can!

2005-05-17T11:46:00.001+08:00

ttz ma batik...i noe ive painted it well...thank u...keke...

2005-05-17T11:46:00.000+08:00

us takin a break after fishin...

2005-05-17T11:45:00.000+08:00

ttz d head of d kampong's hs...

2005-05-17T11:44:00.000+08:00

us fishin...n i caught 3 fishes!!!

2005-05-17T11:43:00.000+08:00

Arrival at Kampong Hj Doraini...

2005-05-17T11:42:00.000+08:00

group photo at UIA (Universiti Islam Antarabangsa)

2005-05-17T11:40:00.000+08:00

d super-dirty muddified girlies...hee...(at Camp Rebutia)

IM BACK!!!

2005-05-17T01:05:00.000+08:00

it has been a week...n im BACK!miz ma family n dearest so much can!NO,i dun miz s'pore!wished i cud stay out longer but i'll b missin ma loved ones so much den...so here i m typin away...

d trip had been a tiring, exhaustin, rest n sleep deprived yet fun, enjoyable n enrichin experience at d same time...
our 1st stop was Camp Rebutia in Selangor, was a leadership trainin camp n d program was koled 'Tawakal' n sure it was...
our "favourite" activity dere was goin into d jungle...IN D MIDDLE OF D NITE...dey wun even spare us durin d day!d trekkin seemed endless n felt as if we were walkin a thousand miles!aniwez, on our 1st nite, we were blind-folded b4 goin into d jungle...if this sounded scary...den imagine goin into d jungle in d middle of d nite URSELF!n tt was wat we did on our 2nd nite...bof nites ended late...cud only sleep at 5 in d mornin n had ta wake up at 8 d "next day"!i swear d 3 days, 2 nites felt like one whole week!thank god...all's over!

our 2nd stop was Kampung Hj Doraini where we stayed wif our so-called foster parents...d experience was great!fishin...batik paintin...all felt warm...so welcomed...

n our last stop was KL...great can!but we only spent a day dere...so sad!not enuf time ta shop lahh...but at least i cud experience clubbin dere...keke...not much diff ta s'pore lahh...but it was fun...coz company was great...frenzzies were great!meetin dem soon...sun,reggae nite aite!*winks*

met dearest jz nw...after so,so long...had dinner date at swenson's!yummy2!miz him so much...
klah...stoned now...will update d pixies soon!~daaz~

*only she knows what's goin on*

2005-05-04T23:26:00.000+08:00

last but no least!*winks*

2005-05-04T23:22:00.000+08:00

candid@shots

2005-05-04T23:18:00.000+08:00

him drinkin out of dehydration...=p

2005-05-04T23:10:00.000+08:00

i love him n he loves me...hee...

wat a day!

2005-05-04T22:46:00.000+08:00

had a great day 2dae...met dearest in d mornin n headed ta palawan...wOohOo!missed d beach big time!stayed dere till late afternun...n off ta geylang we go!went ta search fer d nicest selendang fer ma mum...n got it from RH...rili nice!bof of us fell in love wif it at first glance...hee...went ta mustafa ctr after tt ta search fer ma campin stuff...legs feelin very tired by den...so headed hm...

early mornin tmr...got ta send ma lappie ta skul...hp it gets well soon...coz ma father's desktop can get rili,rili slow n super irritating!urgh!aniwez,cant wait ta get out of s'pore...fast cum monday!n dear,ull fit into ma luggage kz...hee...lupp ya!

itz nice ta lose ur mind n balance abit n juz doin tings wifout u knowing it sumtimes...im happy.im blessed.wat more can i ask fer...

*she feels so lurved*

2005-04-29T23:41:00.000+08:00

blurry pic...!

2005-04-29T23:39:00.000+08:00

juz me n ayu..

curvy road....

2005-04-29T23:03:00.000+08:00

OohWeEe...
examz over yesterday...n d feelin is SPLENDID!met dear yesterday b4 goin ta skul...had lunch, den headed ta skul a bit early fer last minute crammin!d cold virus suddenly strucked me...n i was practically sneezin thruout d whole paper!was feelin down, must b d irritatin runny nose, even wen d paper had ended, but it was all gone as soon as he appeared!he picked me up fr skul n ta town we go...decided not ta haf dinner coz bof of us still felt full fr d extra-heavy lunch we had..so was juz chillin ard...crappin n laughin...no worries...aww,i missed it!

d exam period was sucky...freakin mood swings, a result of overwhelmin stress...but i did it!lucky i haf ma beloved huz olwez dere, patiently supportin me, makin ma days lighter n brighter n frens hu were olwez dere ta ssure me tt im on d rite track, clearin ma endless doubts n teachin me all d "new" stuff...so special thanks go to d sweetest peepz- aqilah, aarti, magnus n esp u, zahdan!thank u so much fer ur notes...had zapped it 2hrs b4 d paper!wudnt noe wat i had crapped wif only ma clean lect notes n 2 pathetic readings!geez...n i even tot of skippin tt paper...wat was i tinkin sey tt time!urgh!but thank god i din follow dis super foolish brain of mine!*sigh*wateva...im SO THRU fer d exams!

im lookin fer a job now...ta fill ma time as well as ta fill ma pocket...no money,no enjoy uh!plus, ma parents arent overloaded banks!so people, if any of u do noe of any job lobangs, do tell me aite!thankies...hee!hoildays planned...cant wait...im lovin it!dear's gone fer 3 days..off ta m'sia..lonely weekends...nah, shall holler d girls...de-stress ppl!outzzzzzzzzzzz...!!!

its juz emotions takin her over...
light dims upon her
she turned around to see
million eyes watchin over her
waitin fer her next mistake
to witness her another fall
as perfect as she tries to be
things cant simply go her way
she sacrificed her biggest moment
fell on her knees,broke down n cry
stares concentrated on her
contented upon what they see
she's simply losin it
a dishevelled doll
ttz wat she is

but sadly wat dey dunnoe..she cant freakin care wat ppl haf got ta say abt her...she's livin in her own paradigm...

no..no..no..ma old-time fav....aww...

*she feels so re-freshed*

take it slow

2005-04-13T21:39:00.000+08:00

no more date dues...
no more tests...
only d cumin exams...
in a weeks time...
urgh!

i noe i haven been updatin. n dis is because...

stupid freakin laptop crashed on me!
been extremely irritatingly busy muggin!
in no mood to!*sigh*

luckily d day went well 2dae....met dearest in d mornin...crashed-gate wif me ta lect but went out durin d break coz pity him was so hungry!hee...din join me back fer d lect after tt...lucky he din..coz i was bz discussin d test answers wif ma frens...n he'ld be left alone if he was dere...test was allrite...managed ta ans d qns...it was open book n open discussion btw!but even if u haf d bestest textbook wif ya...it wun b of any use!n i had ta squeeze d ans wif dis tiny minute compressed brain of mine!klah...plus dose fr freakingly crazy born-smart peepz!lucky i sat wif dem...dis is wat u kol 'survival of d fittest'!kwakwa... headed ta town after tt wif dear...he wanted ta do abit of shoppin..."bau kedai uh!"=p den had dinner at rex mackenzie rd...yummy2!

n nw im back hm...all "hyped up" ta do ma revision...~bluek~

wateva...

i noe dis is all temporary...i can imagine better days ahead...campin trip in mlysia...shoppin in kl...holiday in bangkok...dancin wif ma peepz...movie marathons...beaches...endless outings...it'll get so much better,i noe it will...

" u dun noe hw much u mean to me...

wenever ure down, u noe tt u can lean on me...

no matter d situation,boy,im gonna hold u down..."

ill b bz dese cumin days...thank u so much fer understandin...i shall meet u up real soon aite...luv ya!

d stress is crankin me up.mah mood's kinda shitty lately.i hate ta feel dis way.ta feel so lost n so confused.evrything juz feel so not rite.sumtin juz seems ta b missin.ta get mahself ta feel so lonely.but wen i do.i'll tink of u.n i noe.tt sumhow ure always dere wif me.ta make tings go d rite way.n it always do.ure mah angel in disguise.god bless.

*she's taking things slow*

shagged...

2005-04-06T21:05:00.000+08:00

still in skul...strugglin wif mah law n malay society 3000 words essay...*sigh*
asked mah father ta fetch me...dun feel like goin hm all alone 2nite...mah brain's gettin tired uh...but got ta finish it by 2dae,coz got 2 tests ta mug fer...urgh!nah..nah..i shant complain..im enthusiastic about all this...ermmm...watevalah indah!

at least tt fish n chips was yummy!hee... crappy ppl...n dey kol me weird!i still dun get wat dey mean...kwakwa...i noe im slow abit...=p

juz got tis song n i lurve it!!!wOoHoO!it hypes me up...*winks*

sum1's b'day cumin...hint hint...hee..."so wat can i gif u inside a box???"
no answers...no prezzie...kwakwa...

d road may b a bit rough...
but we'll hang thru...
im sure we can...
d complications tt happened...
has not drifted us apart...
but brought us closer...
coz the downs n not d ups tt define a relationship...

*she's brain-drained*

she misses him...

2005-04-05T12:53:00.000+08:00

I MISS U!I MISS U!I MISS U!

i nid u by mah side...so will u cum n make it all rite...???
i noe im so cranky nowadays...n get pretty irritating...but u noe,i dun mean to...i nid u so...

cant wait ta meet u again...*sigh*

*she misses him so much*

2005-04-04T22:27:00.000+08:00

juz me n d gerls!

2005-04-04T22:21:00.000+08:00

ta town we go...!

hectic weeks ahead!!!

2005-04-04T21:49:00.000+08:00

been kinda bz lately wif skul...2 more tests n 1 more date due b4 d exams...n d irritatin thing is tt...bof tests n date due falls on d SAME DAY!hw much more lucky can i get?!hmmph!
nah...i juz cant b bothered animore...ill juz do ma best...wat matters i noe ive tried!n aniwez...i believe in mahself!truly blessed tt ive got skulmates tt care...lets study smart n strive fer As ppl!cheh!mcm paham jek!hee... plus, ive got a super supportive family, beloved lupp lupp huz alwez dere n sweet sincere frens ta brighten ma days...luv u peeps so much!!!*BIG HUG*

met alot of ppl recently...sri sweets n rul...wan sweets...n azreen dearest!!!i miss her so much can!!!*pouts* anticipatin nites out n bangkok trip wif her soon...dear,u'll follow 2 aite!hee...
remembered our jc days...d 1st person i befriended...no,no...d 1st person i approached...aww...so shweet...n she became ma lesbian partner since den...kwakwa!

been abit cranky lately...talkative n crazy one moment, den quiet n gloomy d other...dearest knows it best...im so sowei...*looks down* thank u so much fer toleratin...
freakin mood swings!

sum ppl r juz so freakin irresponsible!!!u noe hu u r....feel d pinch!

*she misses dancin...let's party soon*

*ucked up!

2005-03-31T22:37:00.000+08:00

in emotic mode...
fark!muz b d overwhelmin stress!
urgh!

i wanna sing
but ma voice suddenly sounded awful
i wanna dance
but d steps juz wun cum out rite
i wanna shout
but d voice seems soundless
i wanna kick
but d moves dun feel gud
i wanna run
but d legs juz cant move
i wanna cry
but d tears dun want ta roll
i wanna dream
but d images seem too vague
i wanna alot of tingz
but notin seems ta b rite!

now...i rili feel like cryin...shitty mood...emo indah...*sigh*

AaAarrGGgHhHhHhhHhHh!!!evrytin juz seems ta much ta swallow...fark!

~ronery geeko~
*she juz wanna b herself*

sigh

2005-03-28T01:21:00.000+08:00

d gf has been busy...
d gf has been neglectin d bf...
d gf hasnt met d bf fer quite awhile...
d gf tot she can handles it well...
but now, d gf is missin d bf so much...
n now, d gf feels so lonely...
n now, d gf nids d bf...
*sigh*

~ronery geeko~
*she misses him.PERIOD.*

OoHhhh...

2005-03-23T03:45:00.000+08:00

Sumtin caught ma eye...
*winks ta nana n ayu* hee... r u guys tinkin wat im tinkin...kwakwa...
i simply cant stop gigglin...u guys noe wat im tinkin about rite?!remember wat we toked abt durin our conference...kekek uh!
anihows...lets make ourselves free on tt day aite!1st of may!WEeEeeEeEe....
meanwhile...reports in progress!urgh!

*she's goin cyclin in d mornin wif her dear*

2005-03-23T03:44:00.000+08:00

WoOhOo...!!!

WTH!

2005-03-22T09:53:00.002+08:00

Deep down in the Pacific Ocean in the city of Bikini Bottom lives a square yellow sea sponge named...SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS!!!hee...
dear fetched me fr skul yesterday n went ta watch Spongebob Squarepants...kekek uh!
had a splendid day...*dreams*...lupp ya!
haiz...cant wait fer d holis...stupid tests!stupid reports!hectic week next week!more like dooms week!so many date dues!fark!I WANT D HOLIDAYS!!!
beach wif d gerls 2dae cancelled...goin swimmin instead...plans cocked up!*sigh*
nah,nvm...tmr will b a better day...hope so...if i can finish ma freakin irritatin long-winded matrices maths assgnmt by 2nite...den i shall decide on cyclin at ec or relaxin at plwn!dis is y i love ma life...=p
gonna go mkn-in wif wan sweets soon!yay!super-duper long time since i met him uh!magnus owe me lunch 2...kwakwa!upper thomson fer me,magnus n company...WoOhoO!tink im growin fat!urgh!
dear...lets go joggin soon!ull run n ill cheer fer u..ok?!seeing u run makes me tired olready!haha...GO REZAL!kwakwa...
28april...pls cum soon...i wanna go out of Sing-chia-por!

sad ta hear wat happened ta u gerl...i feel fer u...sumtimes,guys can rili b stupid jerks!n dese jerks dun deserve us!u noe,me n nana r alwaes here if u nid us...now,try ta concentrate on ur exams k...luv ya!*hugs*

*she wants ta go bali...heavenly paradise!*

Read n understand...

2005-03-17T10:29:00.000+08:00

Dont pretend like u care
Dont act like u feel fer me
Coz I noe behind tt facade
U're juz another hypocrite

Time has passed
We said our goodbyes
New chapters r made
N new promises r said

Dun u get it
Wat I'm tryin ta hint
U r no longer in mah life
So do as u tink deem fit

I dun need anymore msgs fr u
I dun need u ta ask me out
Coz I'm no longer tt girl
No longer d girl u pushed aside

I've moved on with life
With sum1 I love so much
I dun need d past
To keep wif me no more

U dun need ta tell me wat happened
Coz I had known fr d start
Ur stories of "no commitments" sounded bull
If u think back n realise

U r just another being
Who I had cared fer at some pt in mah life
N who had rejected mah concern to go fer another
N gave me stupid reasons ta stay aside

Now, I'm happy,blessed n feel loved
I dun need u ta pull me down
With ur sweet nothings n selfish talks
Coz I've moved on n cant b bothered anymore

Now, is it clear enuf fer u
Now, u get wat I mean
U may think I'm being mean
But search ur conscience n think!

*she's is lurveeeeeee*

2005-03-13T19:49:00.000+08:00

crappy us after evrytin was over...hee...

2005-03-13T19:47:00.000+08:00

me n d bride-to-be...

2005-03-13T19:45:00.000+08:00

i love him n he loves me..lalalala...

2005-03-13T19:42:00.000+08:00

eww...i look so bitchy in d pic...urgh!

2005-03-13T19:38:00.000+08:00

pixies takin below d plc...